I can hurt myself and predict the reaction.
But I can’t hurt others and know what will happen.
I often end up hurting people around me.
I destroy their illusions
I kill their hopes
I’m playing too much.
I should hurt myself, not others.
I may hurt myself, cause my body and soul’s mine.
But I’m not allowed to hurt others.
They shall not suffer because of me.
They didn’t hurt me in the first place.
Therefore I have no reason to do so.
But I still do and question my sanity.